Well, well, well guess who remembered they have a blog that probably needs updating?
A LOT has happened over the past few months, so bear with me as I try to unscramble some of it. Also, I’d just like to note that I probably couldn’t have picked a worse time to write up this longer blog post seeing as I have a perio exam tomorrow that I’m way behind on studying for (it’s so boring I want to cry… ADHD brain no likey), and my mom is coming to visit me in a few hours and my apartment is A HOT MESS. So, let’s dive in, shall we? *cracks knuckles*
October was probably one of the most exciting months of my life. After about two months of dragging my sensitive, creative corpse through the lifeless desert of despair that is querying, I WAS OFFERED REPRESENTATION.
I. HAVE. AN. AGENT.
I am represented by Kelli Martin at Wendy Sherman Associates. I could not be more honored or thrilled to work with Kelli. She immediately understood my vision and has so much passion for what she does… SHE’S JUST A DREAM UGH.
So that was freaking awesome and one of the most exciting things to ever happen to me. I honestly couldn’t believe it.
November & December
School was really trying to kill me those last few weeks of the semester. I’m still feeling the burnout for how hard it was, just a constant stream of practicals, quizzes, exams, rotations… IT. WAS. THE. WORST.
But I survived it. Barely. But whatever.
I also totally failed my civic duty as a bookstagrammer to do a top ten list for 2019. But I also don’t *love* those end of the year wrap-ups anyways, because I think they can often catalyze a lot of pain for authors when their books don’t make it on those lists… or maybe I’m reading too far into. BUT, I did share some of my favorite bookstagram moments from 2019. Posts that brought me joy, made me feel connected to the community, and sparked so many downright RIDICULOUS conversations (virgin heroes were at the forefront of many of these moments):
January started off with a bang. One of my goals for 2020 was to become a published writer, and that happened with Frolic Media! My first article was a toolkit for fighting seasonal depression, pairing self-care activities with romance novels. It ended up being a hit, and I am now a regular contributor to Frolic on self-care ideas and romances to go along with it. I love working with Frolic and am beyond excited at this opportunity. The rest of my articles can be found here. I feel truly honored to discuss mental illness with people and work to destigmatize it. For so much of my life, I felt ashamed of the complexities of my mental health, but being able to connect with people, and receive messages saying how my words have helped them feel seen, is the greatest honor I could ever receive.
I also finished up the two rounds of edits and revisions on Tongue-Tied before it was ready to be sent off the editors. This was… a lot. It really was a surreal experience to work with an agent, think editorially, and take this next huge step. I will never be able to express how much this journey means to me, but I’m so thankful for this wild ride.
Most importantly, I welcomed a new (cat) baby home!
Zadie is the newest addition to our family, and every time I look at her I want to scream because she’s so damn cute. She and Yaya became fast friends, and they regularly cuddle and groom each other. She’s a little hellion though. She gets into EVERYTHING and likes to eat from the trash. Gotta love her.
And that brings us to today! This month, my book officially went out on submission to editors and it kind of feels like: LKNXV;KJSAN FASJFOIPWEJK<A:DLGJA’ WHAT????
I anticipated feeling a lot more anxious about this, but, overall, I’m just so damn proud and excited and happy to have made it this far. Writing this book was the first thing in my life I’ve ever done that was entirely for myself. I put so much of my heart into that book, and I just hope others find the joy in it that I felt writing it.
No one has explicitly told me this, but there seems to be a sort of Fight Club vibe about submission… First rule about submission is you don’t talk about submission. So, I’ll just leave it at that. I’m happy and overwhelmed and hopeful and nervous and 1000 other feelings.
And, through all of this, I’ve slowly been growing in understanding my mental health/illnesses. I think one of the most ah-ha moments for me as I’ve sought out more information on my anxiety, depression, and ADHD, has been the fact that there is no timeline for me to understand my brain. This will be a lifelong process of understanding how my brain functions differently, within neurodiverse diagnoses and diverging from those as well. Having patience– for myself, my brain, my emotions, school, writing, submission, others– is key in this, something I’m awful at, but I just have to trust the process.